Yes, I am the manager of the home. But oh my how things are in transition for even that these days. Jumping from three children whom I have managed from the beginning’s of their precious lives to managing them plus two older children who have had no instruction, aka management.
Some days are very difficult, but not because of bad attitudes. It is the untrained older children influencing the younger children in a negative way. Lack of responsibility, respect and concern for others. Oi! We knew this would be part of the process, so no surprises there. However, watching the breakdown in our family structure and habits is so hard. I keep reminding myself that we have to walk through this season and that the next season will come in due time.
Breakdown. No, I haven’t had a breakdown – at least not the tearful kind. I have been frustrated, lost perspective and been overwhelmed. I have had coffee too late and wine too early. I have been starving for more of God’s word and full to the brim with looking at the piles of stuff everywhere. Managing, to barely keep my emotions in-check.
Not a day or moment ever comes that I wish we were not on the journey we have chosen. Make no mistake about my heart, I love these kids!!! But this first year of adjusting, of becoming the new and improved Watters Family, is going to mean a lot more work. And some new management skills…